line inspiration pictures

I have already begun looking for inspirations for my next fashion line I will make for school. Unfortunately I will not be making it until my senior year. Here are two inspiration boards that I have made.

Boots, Boots and more Boots

Recently I have been rather obsessed with some of the boots I have been finding online, however can not convince myself to drop the $70-$200 that it would cost be to pick up some of these, but I thinks its still fun to look at.









*All Shoes are from Modcloth.com*

Life: (noun) the condition that distinguishes organisms from inorganic objects and dead organisms

Wow, its been a while. My life went really fucking crazy for a while. And I guess at this point I haven't really even begun to tell people how crazy, but I need a place to vent, so here it goes.

Well I left my boyfriend of two years shortly after he visited home for Christmas and New Years. It was working and I was not happy. I made some mistakes after we broke up because I hadn't been free for a long time I guess and I was getting attention from guys that I had either ignored before or hadn't been receiving. Quite a few of the people who where previously in my party circle are not longer to fond of me. I ended up dating a guy who I have been friends with for two or three years, he left his girlfriend, a girl I knew for me.

For a while life was really good with me and my new relationship, I was really happy and was enjoying myself so much, I totally forgot how much I missed having someone who i could be with on a regular basis. We had a lot of fun, did picnics and walks and went hiking and tons of stuff like that. Had my birthday, so I am 20 now (whoot). And things where going dandy.

I applied for an I.P.A job at my college, where I would be the adviser for a group of Japanese exchange students for next year, and got it. Which is great other then the fact that it will mean one more year in the freshman dorms but other then that it will be epic.

I also took a class called fashion Line Development which consumed my soul as I made three out fits from scratch. I draped the pieces on a dress from, made patterns from the draping, made samples from the patterns, fitted the samples, adjusted the patterns, made new samples, fitted, made complete garments from finalized patterns. I then had a fashion show with the ten other members of the class and some "ready to wear" or store designs. It sold out and was epically fun.

After I finished that it was basically the end of the quarter and kinda down hill from there, because I didn't have time for basicly anything other then that damn fucking fashion show, I got a D- in my Japanese 101 class (I am going to retake it next quarter). I was kinda stressing about my finals and stuff and about the fact that my boyfriend had asked me to move in with him and one of our best friends and I was kinda getting cold feet, and I thought he was too because he was getting kinda distant. But he assured me that he was stressing about his work as a county computer tech and that he was also in the process of moving out of his mothers house (he had been playing dad to his 10 year old brother for almost 9 months because his parents where going threw a divorce and his mom was going a little crazy because of it). So I really didn't think much of it other then trying to make his life as easy as I could.

So the quarter ended and we moved most of my stuff over to his place and some to my parents house, and things where going well. I was cleaning his house and trying to fit in to the small place. (oh I moved in on Wednesday). On Friday I went over to have dinner with my parents and celebrate my mothers birthday a little late. Well my parents and I have kinda a weird relationship right now and its really kinda draining to be over there, and they where a little ticked when I left and I was also ticked. Anyways I go back over to the apartment and I was locked out and had to wait for my boyfriend and his best friend to come home from where they had gone to drink. So I was pissed at that a little bit too. I was mad cause I felt like I spent a lot of awkward time with his family and when I had asked him if we would come with me to my parents house he told me he wasn't feeling well and just wanted to stay home and play video games, which was ok. And we argured, he told me that he felt like "he was always talking to my representative and never me" because I would agree to do things "to save the feelings of others" rather then voicing my opinion. And I told him that I only did that on things that really didn't matter because he had already voiced his opinion and I didn't really care. Anyways the argument ended with him saying he really honestly wanted to be with me and wanted to make things work.

Well Saturday rolls around we go out to look for a car or moped for me (I had been boring his car for the last few days) and the whole time he was being really distant and pissy. We then go over to his mothers house and baby sit his brother. On the way home I asked him what was wrong, and to sum up the conversation he thought that he never acted like himself around me, and that we where not compatable and now that I was in his space he was able to figure it out, and that's why he has been stressing for so long, and it wasn't going to change if we "tried to make it work" but he still wants to be friends because "he doesn't want to lose someone amazing and good like me from his life". (this wasn't all said in the first convo, we talked about it a few days later and this is finally what came out) I was really devastated because I was really happy with the relationship and with living with him and our friend. So we go back to the house and I throw most of my stuff into my now ex's boyfriend's car and had him take me to my parents.

So I was back at my parents, not where i wanted to be for the summer. And I didn't have my own space, I was living out of my parents living room until my sister got her shit together and moved down stairs (that was a force of friction because she basicly had two rooms and I didn't have any room) and working at my old highschool job. Wonderful. And I basically have no friends left in my home town, my bestest friend now lives in seattle, most of my class (who i can stand) also no longer live here. And the two people I was planning on spending the most time with are well now my ex and his roommate. Wonderful.

I guess i am just feeling really lost and lonely now, and I haven't felt like that for a really long time. I just want to go back to school, I want to go home, cause I don't feel like I belong here or can be myself around anyone here. I don't feel like I have an outlet or an escape and I am becoming stir crazy from not seeing anyone other then family or people at work (and that's not really socializing at all) who are all almost three years younger then me....so basically life sucks right now.

And through this whole thing I feel like I have been neglecting my spiritual life completely and think that I need to go back and work on some things again (kinda another reason I decided I wanted to work on my blog again).

Gods damn enterwebs

I have been spending way to much tim on the internet (enterwebs as my friends call it) due to being bored, with out a car and snowed into my house over the past week. I have discovered the addictivness of such sits as FML, Texts from Last Night, Fail Blog, and Post Secret. Grrrrr for boredom...FML!!

Daemonia Nymphe

Well I am home now for winter break. I wanted to post pictures of my drive home, because we drove along the river that I grew up playing in...but never have seen it really in winter, or at least not this late into the season because of the road conditions tend to be rather dangerous, however this year has been extreamly cold but very very dry...no snow yet which is very crazy. So I got to see the river and the ice dams that build up this time of year. Anyways I will post pictures as soon as I get them off my phone.

Well I wanted to do another music post...maybe my last post was also music but I don't remember, anyways, this is about Daemonia Nymphe which has come to be one of my favorite pagan bands, and favorite ritual music. They sing in greek song about the ancient gods and so on, with a little bit of a modern twist in some song, but in others they play traditional greek instruments. Well here are some of their songs, because I feel like sharing their awesomeness lol. Anyways will do another post later.

First Look...Maybe

So I am applying to be a member of lookbook.nu which is a fashion website, that you have to be invited to join or apply for. Well one of the things you have to do to be accepted is show them what you will post as your first "look" or outfit. So here is is.

I have no idea if this is going to be good to get me in but I am going to try.

None-Western Art

this is something that I have meaning to blog about for a long time but never gotten around to it. But this quarter I have been taking a none-western art history class. I have found it extremely interesting, because I really didn't know much about the cultures and art of the areas that where covered. We covered Africa, Middle East, India, China, Japan, Early south America and north America, New Zealand and Easter Island. One of the most remarkable things I learned in that class however had to do with me. I consider my self to be a rather liberal person with very few judgments about a particular people...well this class really tested that, because I realised how I had been viewing most of these people with the social connotation of the word "primitive" *see number five below*

(-adjective: 1.being the first or earliest of the kind or in existence, esp. in an early age of the world: primitive forms of life. 2. early in the history of the world or of humankind. 3. characteristic of early ages or of an early state of human development: primitive toolmaking. 4. Anthropology. of or pertaining to a preliterate or tribal people having cultural or physical similarities with their early ancestors: no longer in technical use. 5. unaffected or little affected by civilizing influences; uncivilized; savage: primitive passions. 6. being in its earliest period; early: the primitive phase of the history of a town. 7. old-fashioned: primitive ideas and habits. 8. simple; unsophisticated: a primitive farm implement. 9. crude; unrefined: primitive living conditions.)

Don't get me wrong, i did not feel that this was a bad thing, I just however saw them as being not as civilized, controlled and sophisticated a society as the Europeans.

However these peoples ideas, concepts and ways or life where amazing and so interesting and in many cases much more civil then Europeans of their time. I had no concepts of the massive African empires or the sophistication of the Chinese philosophy. I found elements in each of these cultures that kinda drew me in...not only on a academic level but more on that spiritual level as well. I thought that it was really amazing, and I think of all my other classes that I most likely learned the most in my art history class. Anyways, just thought that I would share that.